Ceci N’est Pas Un Lifestyle Blog
Anthologie + Anxiety + Personal September 13, 2016
I’ve been having a blogging existential crisis. And I’ve been pretty bad at keeping it a secret. If you follow me on Twitter or watch my Stories on Instagram, you may have seen my rather cringeworthy whine-fests about hating blogging. Recently this has taken a dramatic turn into hating myself a little bit. And that’s why I need to have a think and a chat about what this blog is and how I mean to continue on. So here we go!
If you’re not familiar with Magritte or the French language, let me translate the title for you: “This is not a lifestyle blog.”
I mean, okay, it looks like a lifestyle blog. It reads like as lifestyle blog. And, in all honesty, when I rebranded from Aisybee to Anthologie, I intended this blog to be even more of a lifestyle blog than it was. Again, in the interest of honesty and transparency, I suppose I wanted my blog to become a bit more “mainstream” and to have the popularity that seems to come with that.
However, that didn’t happen, and I think my views and engagement have become a lot worse as time has gone on. And there’s something a bit disheartening about basically finding out that your “lifestyle” isn’t very interesting, aspirational, or even quite relatable (most people don’t live in Brighton and eat gluten free, for example). And I began to take it to heart.
Meanwhile, I’ve begun to experience quite a lot of anxiety again. It wasn’t entirely attributed to feeling like a blogging failure, but that did prove to be a bit of a trigger along with everything else. With my anxiety, my main two things that my brain focuses on is perfectionism and self esteem so you can see how feeling as if my life didn’t measure up to everyone around me could be damaging.
My blog was becoming a major way that I was attributing value to myself, whereas in reality my blog should be adding value to my life. Even looking at my social media accounts, my Twitter was completely Anthologie branded. My bio on Instagram was all about my blog. But I am not my blog. And I don’t want to be my blog.
So, as of today, Anthologie is no longer a lifestyle blog. My Twitter is no longer splashed with Anthologie. And my bio no longer says that I am a “blogger.”
Anthologie will be a place for brain dump posts like this, articles that are just photos I’ve taken, and sharing some of the more tactile art and whatnot I’m trying to make as I try to treat my anxiety. There will still be posts about my life and things that I like, but probably fewer of them. There won’t be a schedule.
Over on social media you can expect fewer scheduled posts. Obviously blog posts will be automatically shared, and I may set up one or two posts that I especially like to post a few times. But I don’t want to bombard my feed with blog stuff anymore. I just want to chat with people and have fun.
And on Instagram… well, I still love Instagram. I don’t think much will change there. 🙂
So that is what is up, and I’d LOVE to know what you think! If you’re a lurking lurker, this is definitely the time when I would appreciate a comment, even if you just smash some letters into that comment box so I know you exist haha!
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